One Of Four

One Of Four

PREFACE: I’ve shared everything about my life and my past for the last 5 years.  I always know how I feel, what to say, and find transparency very comforting in my journey.

This post although is the hardest thing I’ve ever shared in my life.  

I knew that If I was gong to share this extremely painful chapter of my life, I had to share everything.With that being said, I left nothing from my story and apologize that parts may be detailed and hard to read.  Understand this is just my story, but it may connect to something within you as well and know that I hope this provides a safe and understanding place for us all to possibly heal.  I love you all.  Thank you for allowing me to share my story.  -Alysha

 

Every Competitor Should READ THIS BLOG

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Every Competitor Should READ THIS BLOG

5 months ago I did something I very rarely do.  I did something I swore I’d never do again.

5 months ago, I stepped onstage as a bikini competitor.

This blog was extremely hard to write because after 3 years, 3 eating disorders, 1 baby and finally taking the stage again, I just needed time to reflect on how competing again made me feel.

Did I accomplish my goal of competing healthy, happy, and for myself finally?

Will I ever compete again?

The truth is, I wanted to answer these questions before they could be answered, and now having some time, and some tears shed- I think I’m ready to answer.

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You can read my back story and past relationship with competing HERE, but its safe to say competing and I have had a very complicated relationship.

My biggest fear about getting onstage again, wasn’t that I wouldn’t be good enough or have what it takes… My biggest fear is that after finally finding peace and balance with my body and food; is that I was taking a chance of loosing something I fought so hard to find.

I do extremes very well.  Balance is a constant battle for me.  Bodybuilding for a person in eating disorder recovery is literally dangling a match above gasoline and hoping it won’t light on fire.

So did I get burned? No, but I did get surprised….

The surprising part about competing again is that the bodybuilding world has changed, yet in some aspects, feels exactly the same.

Yes, judges still like one look.  You still need thick skin, and how you place is still a crap shoot- it’s just what you signed up for and I don’t mind it.

BUT, talking backstage with the girls, I found that not every girl had starved herself, did hours of cardio, and restricted themselves for weeks to get there.  Some girls wanted to be like me, compete as healthy as possible.  I’ll admit these girls were few, but just seeing the small change gives me a lot of hope for this sport.

I can know admit that starting my prep, I had the extremely high hopes that it is possible to bodybuild and be healthy.  I can say that I whole heartedly tried to do that for 34 weeks straight, but I feel that this experience has really taught me what “healthy” really is.

At roughly 4 weeks out from my show, I dropped my calories into the biggest deficit I had my whole prep, I also started to implement 4 cardio sessions a week.  Compared to most competitors preps, I was still eating higher calories and doing less cardio than most, but deep down I didn’t feel right.

I felt fatigued. I was moody.  I was hungry from the time I woke up until the time I went to bed.  And for the first time in 3 years, I started looking at my body with harsh judgement and at food with some anxieties.

In my past competition days, I would of wrote this off as “being dedicated”.  This was familiar territory.  Before I knew better, it was just part of the process.

It’s extremely painful for me to share this, because its hard to understand eating disorders unless you’ve experienced them.  Its even harder to understand, how hard someone fights to recover from them.

1 night during my prep, I remember being so hungry, that I couldn’t stand the feeling anymore.  I began binge eating, something I did often during my disorder days…. I then began to panic about the food I just ate and immediately went to get my sneakers to go do cardio.

As I was tying up my shoes, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. 

It’s hard to put into words what that moment felt like, but it was like seeing a ghost from your past.

I just started to cry uncontrollably because I felt ashamed, embarrassed, and frankly, my heart just felt broken in that moment because I knew I worked so hard to never see “this girl” again, and her she was, staring right back at me.

In that moment I broke my own heart.

I decided to compete again to do one thing: to prove to myself that under even the most extreme challenges, I would never abandon the commitment I made to myself to be healthy and happy.

 LEFT: My first show ever MIDDLE: 6th show RIGHT: Last show

LEFT: My first show ever MIDDLE: 6th show RIGHT: Last show

The best part about breaking your own heart?  You know how to mend it.

The next day I took my calories up. I took my cardio down.  100% knowing that my body might look “less competitive” by doing this, I had to remind myself that I didn’t start this again for a plastic trophy, a judges opinion, or to be the leanest onstage- I did it for me and from that moment on, I felt a strength and pride in myself that I’ve never felt before.

I think in that moment, I really gained everything I set out to get stepping onstage again: THAT NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCES, HEALTH AND HAPPINESS WAS GOING TO BE MY FOCUS- NO MATTER WHAT.

Show day was a very different experience for me than my past competition days.

What was once a day of worry, nerves, and pressure felt; I was chilling!

I had fun with the other competitors. I felt very confident and really had fun!

Even though I was the only mom in my class and I was quite a bit older than the other girls (ok so when did bodybuilding start in high school? Lol) I couldn’t help but feel extremely proud of the package I brought!

I ended up placing 3rd and nationally qualifying for the 3rd time in my career, which felt really great!

I think I had so much fun and was so relaxed because deep down, I truly DID NOT CARE what the judges thought, how I placed, or how I compared to the competition.

I found something better than winning: I FOUND MYSELF and being able to redeem yourself on your own terms? I finally felt real pride for myself.

So….. will I ever compete again? I’m not sure.

Was getting back onstage again the right decision? Absolutely!

Can you actually compete healthy and happy? It’s complicated🤔

 

I wanted to write this post because too often I see past competitors try to put bodybuilding into a box- a negative one.  I also see competitors preach a lot of bullshit about competing as well.

 

I just wanted to give you my experience; full circle.

You rarely get the chance to re-write wrongs in your life and I actually was given the chance to do that and for that; I’m really proud of myself and although “that girl” from before may have been broken, “this girl” now? Well, she’s unstoppable!💪🏼

 

 

 

 

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So umm, I have a 2 YEAR OLD?

Last year, I wrote a blog about having a 1 year old.

I wrote it 2 weeks before his birthday, posted on his actual birthday, and pretty sure I had some super poetic, pinterest-ey advice things in it.

This year, I’m writing this blog 2 weeks after his birthday, might post it this week if I'm lucky, and there’s zero poetry in my life currently…

So yea, umm I have a 2 year old?

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If by chance you want to check out my first year poetry, read my post from last year (I re-posted it for you!), and you’ll know that I still keep a random note in my iPhone in hopes that I will capture every funny moment, memory, and thought my little guy and I share.

Well, not gonna lie, there’s only a couple things from the last year in my notes (this whole 2 year old thing has been really busy) and it’s mostly dates and like some random target sale reminders, so instead, I’ll share some thoughts.

I’m so proud of you. Well, one thing is the same from last year, every.single.thing. your kid does is amazing!  From the first giggle to a fart, the best thing about being a parent is witnessing your child learn and grow. So many first’s this year and they were honestly some of the best moments of my life!

Jax’s highlight reel by far was watching him learn to walk, then run, and now jump from couch to couch giving me a heart attack.  Or crazy enough, my kid loves to clean!  He already vacuums and loves to sweep with his mini broom set; let’s hope this sticks around!

You never stop being amazed and you never stop being a highly obnoxious parent, asking people if they want to see another video of your kid doing, well, anything.

 

Is he like, ever, going to start listening to me? Remember before you had kids and you would see toddlers sass’ing their mothers and think, OMG; they're so cute!  Well when you turn out to be the mom with the sassy toddler, it’s really not that cute guys…

My son is well, spirited- real spirited and 500 google searches later on “How to discipline your toddler” my son still doesn’t listen to me all the time, but sometimes, in brief moments, he actually does!  It’s in those moments that I realize there is light at the end of the tunnel and the same way I figured it out in year 1, i’ll get it sometime in year 2.  

 

Love you, mama. Oh man, those 3 little words.. I was putting Jax down for bed after a bath and every night I try to read to him.

I sat his book down, kissed his forehead, and as I was heading out of his room he said, “Luh you, Mama.”

I swear my heart just stopped and my ovaries exploded guys! It was a moment, although so simple, was the most incredible feeling as a mama.

It’s moments like that, that you hold tight on the hard days, and smile ‘till your face hurts on the good ones.  It was also the moment, that I finally understand why people can have 5 kids- because it really does make you feel unbreakable love.

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In 4 years, he’ll go to school.  Some days get a little intense in my house.  I work from home full time and have part time child care until now, and to keep my sanity, some days you’ll find me locked in our pantry, just taking a time out while my son works through a tantrum outside the door.

(For my people reading this who don’t have children, this is normal. Trust me.)

But anyways, there’s been times where I’ve found myself daydreaming of what it will be like when my son finally goes to school.

Over the past 6 months, my son has really begun wanting to play with other children more and craving interaction so we’ve decided to put him in pre-school early….cue the water works!

I’ve been incredibly lucky to have the opportunity to work from home and raise my son with me everyday; its seriously such a blessing!  And even on the days where I end up in the pantry, I still wouldn’t change it for the world!

But we always want what is best for our kids right? So deep down we knew, no matter how hard, school for my little guy was the best choice.

That’s the hard lesson I've learned from year 1 to 2; that each year he grows up, needs mom a little less, and I have to grow with him- I have to let him grow up and its so dang hard sometimes.

 

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He’s so perfect babe. Did I mention how lucky I am?  Well, I am!  Not only do I have a pretty killer kid, but I lucked out with the best husbands of all time.  

Since day 1 of having my son, my husband and I parent as a team.  We both share parenting responsibilities and somedays, when the other one really needs it, one of us takes over so we can both get breaks.  We both get frustrated. We both get to share special times.  We really wanted to be a team for our little guy, and I always knew it, but especially this year, I’ve realized how important our teamwork is.

I’m a good mom because my husband helps me to be the best and I’ll never be able to repay him for that.

But every night, when the day is done and the millionth chore is completed, and we look at each other so tired sometimes; at least one of us says, “He’s so perfect.”

Everyone tells you how much a child will change you, but no-one ever tells you what change it will bring to your relationship.

Some days ours is really tested as parents and as husband and wife, but our son brings us closer and makes us appreciate one another in a truly special way!

So yes, somedays I remind myself to “let go” of the small things and remember to just appreciate having a great partner to share parenthood with.

 

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Year 2 was hard, but it was more fun that I’d had in my entire life!

This year has really made me become more confident as a mom; not because i’m perfect, but because I realize that life doesn’t have to be perfect to be amazing.

I embrace the mess.  Still take on more than I should, and I NEVER feel like I know all the answers… but that’s really the most fun part sometimes!

 

Everyday Jax shows me new and reminds me that whatever mistake I made that day as a mom, its ok- he really loves me no matter what!

Its been a great year connecting with all of you!  So many of you have reached out with advice, support, and love and have truly made my day so many times; I can’t thank you enough!

I’m excited for year 3 and as always, I'll keep you guys posted!  

 

 Oh did I forget too mention mom and dad got married this year?!? Jax was the best ring bearer ever!  He refused to wear shoes that day- choose your battles mamas!

Oh did I forget too mention mom and dad got married this year?!? Jax was the best ring bearer ever!  He refused to wear shoes that day- choose your battles mamas!

Umm...Hey, I have a 1 year old?

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I’m a mom of a 1 year old.
I’ve put a lot of time and thought into this post.

I’ve been writing down notes, thoughts, rants, even prayers for a year now and unknowingly I was writing this blog for a very long time.

 My son turns 1 this week and I’m trying to wrap my mind around so many things I’ve learnt, experienced, dealt with,felt; in the last year.
So I thought I’d just share the things I’ve been writing down for the last year.
“Thank you for choosing me to be your mama” The moment my son was placed on my chest, he looked straight into my eyes and I was blown away how much love I could feel for meeting someone for the first time. He knew me, I knew him, and I’d searched years for that feeling he gave me instantly: fulfillment.

I had a rough pregnancy. Pretty intense labor and didn’t care about any of it, because I had him now. We (my husband and I) just kept looking at each other, staring at him; so in love.

Our first night home, Baby B slept for 8 hours straight and didn’t make a sound and we BOTH said, “man, this is easy”…..holy shit, did we have another thing coming!
“I’m not a quitter, but I seriously don’t know how to do this again tomorrow” So for my new moms, don’t let this scare you. For my veteran moms, you’re just gonna laugh.

It was month 3, I had extremely low milk supply, a baby with a high appetite and seemed to sleep, well, never.

Sleep deprivation, hormone swings out the ass, and putting pants on was a high achievement in those days! Those days and nights were some of the hardest mental and physical days I’ve ever experienced in my life; looking back though, I’ve never been so connected with my husband. I’d never lived so un-selfishly and I’d never appreciated little things so much….. A nap, a meal from a neighbor, a husband that did bath time every night. I write that last sentence with tears in my eyes because those things REALLY meant that much too me.

My tips? Bring a lactation consultant to your house, get a baby swing, don’t do the laundry-SLEEP WHEN THEY SLEEP, and know it gets easier and you get better.
“He’s just so awesome.” Month 3-6, Baby B was turning into the happiest and most curios baby. I took him everywhere. We did everything together and my husband and I were really getting into the swing of this “parenting” thing.

We just couldn’t stop saying how awesome he was. 

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Everything your kid does is amazing. Every smile, laugh, even a fart is just the coolest damn thing. The best part of being a parent is getting constantly blown away by how proud you are of your children; it’s priceless.

“You think this shit is easy?” Before baby I worked an 80 hour work week. After baby I attempted the same, but determined I’d do that AND be a stay at home mom.

I turned into a complete train wreck.

I was stressed, anxiety driven, exhausted, and jealous; yes jealous.

I was jealous my husband got to go to work. I was envious seeing other people exploring their careers and I was so mad I couldn’t figure out a balance of career and motherhood.

In return, I took a lot out on my husband, which was so unfair. And now looking back I wasn’t being honest with myself or giving myself a chance really.

I loved being at home with my son, I didn’t and still haven’t missed anything, that meant everything to me! But I knew I needed to stop getting frustrated and start getting CREATIVE.

I put a gym (I’m a personal trainer) in my house, hired a part time nanny, and got my ass back to work and my mind back in check.

As a couple, we had highs and lows about career and family. As a person, I had to search to the bottom of my soul it felt like to find my way. But it came together; for me and my family.
“I love my body; like seriously.” I had some form of an eating disorder for 18 years of my life. The day I found out I was pregnant, I knew my addiction to my body was over. My son saved me from myself.

My last stint in therapy I was asked, “what is your ultimate goal of recovery?”

“To say I love my body,” I replied.

I finally said that out load 6 months ago and I truly believe it. I train very hard, but not for aesthetics. I train to be healthy, to be strong, to be an example for my son.
“Is he ever going to be ok?” Sick babies hurt your heart and can break you down; seriously. 

My son from 6-10 months was sick from something almost every week. Ear infections that lasted months. He went from sleeping through the night to 45 minutes at a time. The feeling of helplessness was unbearable to me.

I just wanted him to feel better. But I also realized so many families have it far worse than us, and I feel so much for them.

Babies get sick. You get tough and you just love them through it.
“This is so dang fun” Becoming a mother is like any life change; there’s layers too it. 

There’s the messy ones, the really happy ones, and just the fillers.

The days really do fly by and one thing I’m left with after a year is that; “The moments pass by so fast, but while you’re in that moment it can feel like a very long time.”

My moment currently? Well it’s SO fun!

Baby B is walking, talking, and really developing into a pretty unique little human! This little human happens to also be discovering emotions, boundaries, and how to always realize a bathroom door is open as he unrolls the 50th toilet paper roll of the week….

Like month 1, month 12 gets easier on some things and reveals new challenges; but the difference is now I have some confidence as a mother.

I google less, I sleep more and the next year is going to be a blast for us both!
I’ve read countless books, blogs, and articles in the last year trying to help figure out this mom thing, but it’s true; there really isn’t a handbook or directions to explain all the ends and outs of being a mama.

Turns out, you ALWAYS end up writing your own.

Words can’t describe what my son has taught and allowed me too feel in a year, the only way to describe it is too look at his face…… He’s so happy.
And that moms, on the hard and the easy days, is the only true way to measure how you’re doing.
Last night, my son threw my iPad in the toilet after a full day of smashing crackers, giggles, unexplainable crying episodes, Elmo, patty-cake, and refusing to eat anything but Mac and cheese….. I elegantly made a not in my journal, “He might start a cult someday”.
Mom life can be tough, but it’s always so fun!
Congrats to my new and my veteran mamas; another year in the books and we have so many great years ahead!

To my son; a year ago I didn’t give you the gift of life, you have me the greatest gift I’ve ever had; you!

Thank you for showing me how to love, feel, laugh, and live a life like this! I love you tater tot, Happy 1 year baby!

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My Favorite Face Products: Starting at $3!

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My Favorite Face Products: Starting at $3!

 

2 THINGS MY MAMA TAUGHT ME WELL:

-Don’t cry over boys.

-Take care of your skin.

Although the boy rule wasn't always easy to follow, I’ve always did a great job taking care of my skin.  Which after my younger years of being a tanning bed slave (gross) and wearing heavy make up; I’ve found some staples that SAVE my skin!

 

The best part, they’re all under $50!

 

MY FAVORITE SKIN PRODUCTS:

 

SPF + TINTED MOISTURIZER

glo-therapeutics, Moisturizing Tint SPF 30+

“I seriously cannot live without this product!  I wear it as make up on the casual days; multiple colors, nice glow, and doesn’t feel greasy”

 

MOISTURE

Acure, Moroccan Argan Oil, in coconut

“All natural, vegan, and seriously saves my dry skin in the harsh Colorado climate!  I also use it as a mix with my concealer to give myself a nice, natural glow”

 

UNDER EYES

Instantly Ageless, Under Eye Firming Cream

“Ok, if you get nothing out of this blog, look at this product!  I’ve had crazy dark under eye circles and puffy eyes since I was younger and when I became a mom- well lets just say shit got real!  I can instantly see a visible difference when I use this and it comes in individual packets, which is awesome for travel!  Downfall is you do have to use a independent sales consultant to get the best price, so if you don’t know someone who sells it, you can normally get a good deal on amazon”

 

FACE MASK

Masque-ology, Collagen Hydrogel Gold Mask

“Girls- this is a steal!  I first came across this at Walmart for-wait for it- 2 for $5!  Great for throwing it on before a night out or in between facials.”

 

GLOW

Hard Candy, Glow All The Way

“Another serious steal!  Under $7 and love the glow it gives my arms and legs!  It doesn’t streak or give you that weird smell like most body illuminators.  I do suggest mixing it with lotion to get the most out the smaller bottle.”

 

TIGHTEN + TONE

Nerium, Firming Body Contour Cream

“Ok, so iIm a MAJOR skeptic when it comes to products that say “eliminates cellulite” or “tighten the tummy” because, well, most products are bogus…but this I could honestly see a HUGE difference using this on the back of my legs and tummy after I had my son.  It is very pricey and you have to find a Nerium sales rep to purchase it, but in my opinion, worth the price!”

 

PREP

Nivea, Sensitive Post Shave Balm

“Next time you’re at Sephora and the sales lady is trying to talk you into $50 make up primer- WALK AWAY!  Because this little gem was introduced to me from a couple make up artists and its awesome!  I put it over my face lotion to prime smooth skin for make up and I really like the smell too!”

 

REPAIR

Skin Ceuticals,Bi-Functional Replenishing Serum, in Correct

“This is my most expensive product I use on my face, but the small bottle lasts forever!  I have to request it through a licensed aesthetician or at a licensed spa.  This is seriously the best product I've ever used for overall face care!  Just make sure to apply every other day if your face is dry”

 

 

 

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All About Implants

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All About Implants

As I mentioned, Impants can change size and shape over time.  From my first bikini show with no implants and 5 inches of bra padding, to the middle photo 4 months after my surgery, to the photo on the right- 2 years post baby and 5 years post surgery

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Chicken in Bulk

Every week I bulk prep my husband and I’s “fit foods”.
Basically a meal we grab on the go and it always includes a vegetable, protein and carb; what can I say? 
Years after bodybuilding, I still practice some good habits of having healthy meals on hand but the other night my husband delicately said, “Turkey again huh?” 

And I got it; time too switch it up!
So here’s a super easy, crockpot recipe too cook up some protein rich meals fast!
Lemon Zinger Crockpot Chicken


What you’ll need:

Large crockpot

Large skillet

Cutting board and knife 

Cooking spatula or spoon
What’s in it:

2 pound chicken breasts

3 lemons

1/4 cup sesame seeds

1/4 cup diced green onion

2 Uncle Ben’s 90 second Jasmine Rice

1 cup lemon pepper marinade 

1 cup diced pineapple

1 cup low sodium, organic chicken broth
How to make it:
Start by dicing up chicken into small cubes on your cutting board. Also, slice lemons into small pieces.
Add lemons and chicken to medium heat skillet. Begin to stir every 1 minute, while adding 1 cup of lemon pepper marinade.

Continue stirring for 3-5 minutes or until chicken is cooked on the outside (you don’t have too cook it all the way through)
While your chicken is getting sautéed, place both rice bags in the microwave for 90 seconds. 

Once your rice is finished; place rice, pineapple, sesame seeds, and broth into your crockpot; set on low or cook for 4 hours.
Lastly, place your chicken and lemons into the crockpot and stir occasionally over the next 4 hours.


I normally prep this meal in the afternoon, so it’s done in perfect time for dinner or add it too some grilled veggies and stock up some pre cooked meals for the week.
I love the change of pace this recipe gave too my protein and still kept my carbs low.
Oh and the hubs? He told me, “Wait, no turkey?” With a smile on his face……
Enjoy guys!

I said I would never compete again! Find out why I'm stepping on stage one more time!

I have 2 disclaimers for this blog post: 
1, I wrote this blog weeks ago but it never felt finished and I think that’s because I still had some “learnin” to do about this whole process.

2, this blog is long, but hang in there, there’s some pretty epic shit in here.
Well here goes nothing….
“This is bullshit. I’m never doing this again.”

Those were the last words I said to myself while walking offstage of my last bikini competition.
You see I had just finished my 3rd show in 6 months…I was emotionally drained from an eating disorder raging out of control, physically considered malnutrition from months of restrictive dieting and training, and to be honest; I hated everything about competing.
I hated the politics. I hated my body. I hated training. I especially hated the constant internal battle, “am I lean/big/good enough” song that played in my head over and over each day… I was done and maybe even a little heart broken.

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Putting on a brave face for my last competition 3 years ago

So I’m sure you’re wondering why in the hell, would that girl ever get onstage again?
Well, it’s because THAT GIRL was broken and THIS GIRL is strong.
It’s been 3 years, a two year old, and 1 long ass road to get to the place I am today.
I’ll be honest, when I first stopped competing, I so badly wanted to hate bodybuilding, but the truth was, I still loved it.

I love the mental challenge of it all. I love watching your body transform, and at the end of the day, you’re asking something of yourself for weeks that most wouldn’t attempt in a day. 
It’s pretty incredible don’t you think? To ask more from yourself than you think you can give?
I began training for my first show while broke, basically living out of my car, starting a new business, and working 3 jobs in a new city.  

The gym was a haven for me. It was the only place I felt strong and in control, in a very turbulent time of my life.
I prepped for 12 weeks going in, and back then there wasn’t macros or reverse dieting; there was tilapia and a treadmill- not much else.

I was so focused and never missed a rep, a minute of cardio, or a bite off my meal plan.
I won my class the first show I entered and I went from the girl who was just happy to be there to the girl who “had to win” her next show.

“Itty bitty” me at my very first show

It was like a monster was born overnight.
I became obsessed and my life suddenly only had room for competing.
I hired a new coach, that had hundreds of proven winners, and even though deep down I knew that coach could care less about me or my body, I just thought this was the only way to win.
The weeks of restrictive dieting created a nasty relationship with food: anything off my meal plan terrified me to eat because it was “bad” but I would obsess over food and it would bring me to 5,000 calorie binge eating episodes followed by 2 hour long cardio sessions trying to “erase” what I did.
i somewhat pulled it together enough to compete again in 2 shows back to back, but my body had taken a toll.
I had dropped down to 7% body fat my first show and then immediately gained 30 pounds by not properly reverse dieting.
My next show I prepped for 22 weeks straight and this time around my body would not respond to any changes we made with diet and nutrition.

As you can tell my body changed A LOT in between those shows! This was my heaviest weight to date and also my worst hair color 🙄

By the time I was 4 weeks out from my last show, I was only eating 30g’s of carbs a day and doing 1-2 hour cardio sessions daily.
My hair was falling out, my face made me look like a walking zombie, and my hormones were badly damaged; I started to have early menopausal symptoms. (I was 25 at the time btw)
But the physical changes happening to my body, surprisingly didn’t phase me.  

This was just another example of the “dedication” and the “focus” bodybuilders had to have….it was an example of how even your own health and happiness can mean nothing to you if you think you’re doing what it takes to win.
At my last show, I got 3rd call outs (call outs are a placement system in bodybuilding). I didn’t even go out to talk with my family and friends after the show. I just stood in the backstage bathroom and cried.  

I don’t think I cried over my placement, I think in that moment, it just became very clear to me how lost I’d become.
I felt weak, broken, angry, and most of all; I felt like a liar. Here I was parading around as this “health” advocate and the things I was doing to myself, I would never allow a client or friend do.  
I was mentally and physically destroying myself for a trophy? Never again.
I started intense therapy for my eating disorders (yea, I had 3 to be exact). I started researching macro nutrition and metabolism repair and for once, found a balanced and happy approach to food. I began multiple types of training styles and once again found myself back in the gym because I loved being there.
I also found my calling as a coach. I still loved bodybuilding, but I found a new passion and a new strength as a coach, because I was determined the same thing that happened to me would never happen to any athletes I trained. 

Doing what I love! In 5 years as a coach, I’ve never had one athlete on a fat burner, restrictive meal plan, or do excess amounts of cardio. So proud of my team!

During my competing days, I was told I had done too much damage to ever be able to conceive, so you can imagine my complete surprise when I was blessed to become a mama; only 1 year after receiving that news.

I owe everything to my son- he saved me from myself in so many ways.
Becoming a mother taught me to love and respect my body for what it can do; not just what it looks like.

Being a mom also teaches me everyday that he sees everything I do. I have no choice but to try to be the best example I can be, every day.

Which after what feels like a novel (thanks for hanging in there guys), brings me to the whole point of this blog; why am I getting onstage again?
I’m getting onstage again because for 3 years, I thought I was gave competing my best and I wasn’t.
I didn’t love my body. I didn’t compete with the focus on health first and results second. And to be completely honest; I just never got to compete the way I wanted too.
I still sometimes think back and forth if I should challenge myself like this….

Mentally I have to be in constant check with my balance and having a positive and healthy outlook.
But then I think about THAT GIRL and how I was right, she couldn’t handle it.

But THIS GIRL, this girl can!

We all deserve health and happiness. We all also deserve to follow our dreams.
I’m stepping onstage to prove to myself and all the other “that girl”s out there; that we can do both!

Cookies and Cream Fluff! Make it in under 10 minutes!

As I was scrolling on my midnight Pinterest addiction the other night; I seriously have a problem…..
I came across a Weight Watchers recipe that looked AMAZING but once reading the calories and macros; I thought, I can do way better than that!
Seriously the best sweet tooth alternative I’ve ever came up with! 
I just dare you to only eat 1 serving!


Low Cal Cookies and Cream Fluff

(Recipe for 1 serving)
What you’ll need:

Large mixing bowl 

Whisk

Cutting board and knife 

Measuring Cups


What’s in it:

-1 box sugar free jello pudding in vanilla or white chocolate 

-1/2 cookies and cream quest bar

-1/3 scoop vanilla protein powder (Find the protein I use )

-2 cups unsweetened almond milk

-1 cup sugar free cool whip (can is my fav)

How to make it:
Start by adding pudding mix and protein powder together in a bowl and then adding 2 cups almond milk.
Whisk vigorously for 2 minutes and then place in the fridge for 5-8 minutes or until jello is a thicket texture.
Next add cool whip to to your jello and whisk until completely mixed.
Chop quest bar into small chunks.
Scoop out 1 cup and sprinkle quest bar on top and you’re about to enjoy some low cal awesomeness!



Here’s the deets for my macro girls:

Calories: 245

Fat: 7g

Carbohydrates: 41g

Protein: 12g

Hope you enjoy guys! Make sure to comment on my instagram page @justafitchick how your recipes turned out!

Alysha's Fat Burning Smoothie: Read and Make Under 5 Minutes!

I had such a huge response to my smoothie post last week; thank you!
Who knew there were so many smoothie snobs out there like me? 😉
I got tons of requests for a green smoothie and I’m posting one of my favs!

Backed with antioxidants and fat burning ingredients, I think y’all will love this one!
Tropic Thunder Fat Burner Smoothie

(Recipe for 1 servings)
What you’ll need:

Blender

Measuring cups
What’s in it:

1 cup pineapple 

1/2 banana

1 scoop protein 

1/2 of a grapefruit 

1 cup spinach

1/2 cup water

1/2 low fat Greek yogurt

1 stevia package

1 teaspoon chia seeds

1/2 cup ice

How to make it:

You’d think it’s impossible to mess up a smoothie, but trust, this girl has!

Add all ingredients together, adding protein powder last to make sure it doesn’t stick to the bottom of the blender.
Blend for 12-30 seconds or until smoothie is at the texture you prefer.

And just like that, you’re out the door!

Hope you enjoy guys! Make sure to comment on my instagram page @justafitchick how your recipes turned out!

Smoothie: Under 200 Cals!

Ok, I’m kina a smoothie snob and I admit it…
But I’m only a snob because I see SO many “healthy” or “weight loss” smooth recipes that are anything but that!
Some smoothies can be packed with sugar, carbs, and little protein; not too mention any easy way to drink 300+ cals!
BUT I mean who doesn’t love a smoothie? 


So I made you an actually “healthy” recipe that is sure to wake you up and curve that sweet tooth!
I do have a couple of go-to smoothies that are my jam, and this one by far is my favorite!
Coffee Choc-ey Coconut Smoothie

(Recipe for 1 servings)
What you’ll need:

Blender

Measuring cups
What’s in it:

1/2 cup decaf or favorite coffee

1 cup unsweetened almond milk

1 scoop protein (GET MY PROTEIN HERE. For extra savings, use my discount: FITCHICK)

2 tbs. gluten free oats 

2 tbs. unsweetened coconut flakes

1 tbs pb2 peanut butter powder

1/2 banana

1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

1 teaspoon chia seeds

1/2 cup ice

How to make it:

You’d think it’s impossible to mess up a smoothie, but trust, this girl has!
Start by brewing your coffee first and wait until it’s room temperature.
Then add all ingredients together, adding protein powder last to make sure it doesn’t stick to the bottom of the blender.
Blend for 12-30 seconds or until smoothie is at the texture you prefer.
And just like that, you’re out the door!

You don’t HAVE to make the ingredient modifications like almond milk and pb2 powder, but like I mentioned, you don’t want your shake getting too high in calories!
Hope you enjoy guys! Make sure to comment on my instagram page @justafitchick how your recipes turned out!

 

Carrot Cake Protein Balls: Best Pre Workout Snack Ever!

The most common question I get asked from clients about meals is, “What do I eat for a pre workout?”
Well kids, I went ahead and just made you a recipe!
Pre workouts snacks should be full of easily digested carbs (15% of your daily carb intake) and be paired with a protein and fat.
I LOVE these protein balls because I can make them in bulk and my little guy loves helping (and eating) them!
Super fast and minimal ingredients too!


Carrot Cake Protein Balls

(Recipe for 4-6 servings)
What you’ll need:

Large mixing bowl

Foiled baking sheet

Cheese grader or blender
What’s in it:

1 tbs. coconut oil

2/3 cup peanut or almond butter

1/4 cup honey or agave

1 tbs. chia seeds

1/2 cup shredded coconut

1 cup finely shredded carrot

1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

1/2 tbs cinnamon 

2 tbs protein powder (use MY PROTEIN here)

How to make it:

This is literally the best part; it’s so easy!
Start by microwaving coconut oil in a microwave safe bowl for 30 seconds.
Grade carrots until very fine and shredded. I actually use my ninja blender too get it very fine.
Add all remaining ingredients together in 1 large mixing bowl- minus the coconut flakes.
Grab a small, palm size of mixture and roll into a ball. (I wet my hands slightly to help have less stick when I do this)
Once your all is formed, roll the ball on a flat surface in the coconut flakes and bam; you’re done!

Make sure to refrigerate and you can freeze the balls up to 2 months in the freezer.
I suggest 2-3 balls per serving to stay within pre workout calorie guidelines; but don’t judge; I had like 5 ok? 

Couldn’t help it, they were so good!
 

What I'm Loving Now: The JORD REECE watch

Some of you have been following me for a hot minute and you may notice that my style is 2 things: no fuss and comfortable.

Taking time between running a business and chasing a toddler around doesn’t leave me hours in the day too spend accessorizing….

So when I found JORD WATCHES; I was in love!

I love the look of natural wood and the face color combinations! They look great with my gym clothes or going to dinner and it makes even a girl on the go like me feel a little bit more “put together” and this mama? Can take all the help I can get!

My favorite watch out of the JORD collection was The REESE Watch and  I’m definitely going to order an engraved men’s watch for my fella on v-day too!

The best part is I’ve teamed up with the great people at JORD to offer you guys an awesome GIVEAWAY!

Click THE LINK HERE and pick what Watch you like out of the collection and you’re entered to win a $100 gift code towards ANY JORD Watch!

Also just for entering, JORD is going to send you a $25 e-gift code!

 

Low Carb Squash Pasta

bacon, spinach, goat cheese; oh my!

My favorite meal by far is lunch! But figuring out a healthy, quick, and macro friendly meal for the afternoon can be a challenge.
I’ve made something similar to this recipe for years, but thought I would re-vamp and share!


It’s so so yummy and completely gluten free, dairy free, and low carb. And I could seriously eat it every day!
You’re welcome babes; you’re welcome!
Low Carb Squash Pasta

(Recipe for 2-4 servings)
What you’ll need:

Large skillet

Cutting board and knife 

Cooking spatula or spoon 

Baking sheet
What’s in it:

1/2 cup coconut oil

4 oz shredded chicken (optional)

1 medium spaghetti squash 

3/4 cup cherry tomatoes

3 bacon or turkey bacon strips (optional)

2 cups spinach

1 cup mushrooms

3 oz. organic goat cheese
How to make it:
Start by dicing up tomatoes into small halves on your cutting board. 

Next start cutting your spaghetti squash by cutting the end off first and then slicing the squash horizontally. (I use to HATE trying to cut them! Slice the ends off first and it’s much easiest!)
Then take a spoon and scoop out the seeds and insides of squash. Apply a liberal amount of coconut oil to top and inside of squash and add salt and pepper for flavor.
Place on baking pan with CUT SIDE DOWN in preheated oven at 400 degrees for 35-40 minutes.
If you’re choosing too add bacon, in a medium heat skillet cook the bacon for 8-10 minutes or until they reach a crispy that you like, then place aside. 
Next add chicken, mushrooms, and tomatoes to medium heat skillet. Begin to stir every 1 minute, while adding spinach at the last 2 minutes for 6 minutes total.
Once squash is cooked, take out of the oven and turn the squash over too cool.

Once cooled, take large fork and scrape out insides of squash.
Combine squash with ingredients in skillet and turn heat to high/medium for 3 minutes while continually stirring.
Spoon out 1 serving into bowl.
Lastly, smash up that bacon and use as a topping while adding chunks of goat cheese on top.

This meal can be modified and adjusted to nutritional approaches so easily; which I love!
If you’re a vegan or vegetarian, just skip the meats and cheese!
Can’t wait for y’all to try this recipe beverages I know it’ll become a go-to for lunch for you as well!

Enjoy guys!

Workout in the morning? Try this breakfast!

My schedule has changed to the wee hours of the morning lately; so that means training super early each day too get it in! Goals, right girls?
Anyways, I started making this fast and all in one meal that served as a perfect post workout meal and breakfast and I wanted too share it with you!
Plus; my little guy loves it and what’s better than a breakfast for mom and babe?


Avocado Protein Toast

(Recipe for 2 servings)
What you’ll need:

Large skillet

Cutting board and knife 

Cooking spatula or spoon 

Baking sheet OR Toaster
What’s in it:

1 egg

6-8 oz egg whites

1 avocado 

3/4 cup cherry tomatoes

3 bacon or turkey bacon strips

2 cups spinach

2 slices Famous Dave’s Organic bread or gluten free bread
How to make it:
Start by dicing up tomatoes into small halves on your cutting board. Also, cut and dish avocado into a bowl and mash.
Add egg whites, egg, and tomatoes to medium heat skillet. Begin to stir every 1 minute, while adding spinach when eggs are almost cooked.
Continue stirring for 3-5 minutes or until eggs are cooked.
While your eggs are cooking, also place bacon strips in a another medium heated skillet and turn every 1 minute until crispy. (I always pre cook my bacon in bulk to have on hand for the week for yummy toppings)

While your eggs and bacon are getting sautéed, place bread slices in the oven or toaster until golden brown. I do 4 minutes at 250 degrees in the oven. Which reminds me; why do I not have a toaster?

Once your eggs, bacon, and toast are finished. 

Spread a thick layer of avocado onto your toast and place eggs, spinach, and tomatoes on top.
Lastly, smash up that bacon and use as a topping.


This meal takes me about 10 minutes total time to make; which I love!

It’s so important too include a protein, fat, and carbohydrate into your post workout meal so this meal covers all the bases! 

So thankful for quick meals like this and Sesame Street re-runs getting me through those busy mornings!
Enjoy guys!

My Wedding

Photos, Tips, and what to do when your dad wants to wear a kilt.


So before we start, realize YOUR wedding is YOUR rules, wants, expectations, and memory; so do you boo boo!
For example, we got engaged, found out we were pregnant a day later, had a wedding 2 years later, didn’t get a manicure for my engagement pics, bought the first dress I tried on, and almost allowed my dad to wear a kilt at our wedding (we’re not Scottish); my point is making your rules- or breaking them is actually kina fun!

I decided to have my wedding local, because I knew a destination wedding would be difficult for my friends and family and if we were havin a wedding- everybody was coming!
Speaking of everyone, for our wedding party we decided to have no one or everyone, so 21 people later, the Wilsons had a small army and it was awesome!

A local wedding also means a larger quest list and can get pricey!

So finding a venue during off season saved me tons and let me have a unique theme.
I choose not to have “colors” but a color pallet. This helped tons with a large bridal party because everyone got to pick a dress they liked in a different color.

No matter what your friends say, they LOVE what THEY get to pick out.
Our groomsmen wore a dark suit because I knew they’d spill on it anyways.

Now because I didn’t have a “theme” or “colors” things got a little difficult on decorations, but also helped.
I knew a fall wedding wouldn’t require a lot of flowers, so I did succulents and greens which saved serious cash with my florist. Fall is a little slow for them as well, so you can usually get good discounts.

For decorations, I spray painted pumpkins, bought vases at the dollar store and a hell of a lot of gold spray paint and got creative. My original quote for centerpieces was $5,000! I made my own for $1,000….

Just make sure to sign up for the craft stores coupon list and buy your decorations after the holidays or seasons.
Also, I scored HUGE off Craigslist! So many brides had similar themes and will really make a deal too get it outta their garage. Other consignment sites get pricey with shipping so look local.
So this next tip is totally up to the bride- your dress! Personally, I hate trying dresses on and really didn’t want to spend hours and dragging my family around town so my first choice was a larger department store too try on as many styles as I could…

Turns out the mermaid I HAD to have, I hated and fell in love with a traditional style dress that- wait for it- was 50% off!

I mentioned before I had a small army of bridesmaids so I knew there was no way to find a dress everyone loved, plus I hated the idea of making them buy a dress THEY normally wouldn’t, so I gave 4 colors and let them pick. Honestly I loved how different they all were and everyone got to show their personality with hair, make up, and dress. Most of my girls rented dresses off rent the runway and saved tons! 

Speaking of hair and make up, I had the most amazing glam squad! I HATE super fussy updos so we went with an easy, tussled low bun.

Oh and I’m notorious for changing my hair color; don’t do silver hair 6 weeks before your wedding- it’s hell to get back to natural color!

I downloaded a monthly wedding checklist and it was awesome keeping me organized as the weeks grew near and before I knew it we were at our rehearsal dinner!
We did a simple margarita and taco bar the night before and it was a blast!
I also made my fella stay at a friends the night before and as cheesy as it sounds, it was really fun to have the build up too seeing him at the end of the aisle! Totally worth hiding in my pantry the day of when he had too stop by and grab the guy’s ties!
The afternoon of my wedding was probably one of my favorite parts! Just me and my ladies; getting all pretty! Since having so many, I made a time schedule for everyone that really helped hair and make up stay on time and I was the LAST one too go (helped me from getting nervous).

I think my favorite part was when the venue cut off beverages 2 hours before the ceremony (make sure too read EVERY protocol in the contract) and my girls decided that wasn’t going to work and snuck to the bar and hid Coors Lights under their dresses to the bridal suite… did I mention I’m from Kansas?

Tips for the day of is always assume you’ll be 15-20 late and plan for it. Bring spares of everything and don’t drink too much and eat well.
I have the baddest most incredible group of friends and even when a problem arose, I really didn’t know about it because my girls took care of it. Don’t stress the day brides; your people will take very good care of you!

I was never one of those girls who “dreamed” of her wedding but one thing I always pictured was an evening wedding. Our ceremony began right at dusk and the thousands of led candles I woke up at 4 am on Black Friday too get were absolutely worth it! My ceremony decorations were wood slices and candles and I’m so glad I went minimal because the mood was set perfectly!

I also had the brilliant idea that myself as well as my bridesmaids should walk down a grand staircase for our entrance…. in heels.. lord help us! But every girl stuck the landing! (This is where the whole “slow down on the mimosas” thing comes in)

Our WP walked down to Kings of Leon songs (our favorite band) by a string quartet and I did the traditional wedding march.
Prior to this moment I was a little terrified to walk down the aisle with so many people staring at me… I met both my dads and as I turned the corner I locked eyes with my future husband…
I don’t remember one face. I don’t think I even breathed. I just couldn’t stop looking and smiling at him.

I think that moment, more than ever, I knew this man was perfect for me because with a day filled with so much chaos; just seeing him made me calm.
We were married by my very good friend and ordained minister, which was great because it was very personal.

We kept it under 20 minutes, and wrote our own vows and exchanged traditional ones too.

My ceremony made the entire process worth it! Everyone laughed, cried, and it was just full of big love! And my first vow as a wife was to even root for my husbands team, my team’s rival, because love makes you do crazy things….
Brian and I snuck off after walking down the aisle to just have some moments to ourselves while everyone went too cocktail hour. We were like excited kids trying to grasp everything that just happened and it was just a great moment too share.

So now too the reception….
This might sound crazy too some reading this, but instead of mass photos during cocktail hour- we snapped a couple and joined the party!

Actually, brian and I didn’t even take one photo of just him and I! 
At first I was disappointed, but I instantly realized that I couldn’t be sad about that because we did EXACTLY what we wanted to do for our wedding: LIVE IN THE MOMENT and enjoy our people!

Speaking of my people; we like to eat, drink, and dance and that’s exactly what we did!
We spent majority of our budget on the drinks and food.

Instead of an open bar we set a high dollar limit and it stretched the drinks further; totally suggest that!
For food I hired a local caterer and instead of plated or buffet style; we did stations. Every station was food influenced by countries we’d traveled too and although I was nervous about it, our guests loved the variety!
I really don’t like cake and opted for our favorite doughnut spot to make us themed wedding doughnuts. My first pricing on a cake was 3,600; our doughnuts cost $200 and there wasn’t even 1 left over! 
To be honest, I wish I could tell you more about the reception but it’s honestly a blur!

Everyone talked, danced, drank and the bags of “props” I got got the party going too say the least!

All I can say was it ended too soon and I wouldn’t have changed one thing! 
I got too marry the most incredible man. My son got to share this day with us and I got too celebrate with the people who made me who I am today. It’s absolute gratitude, joy, and love wrapped into one great memory.

The decorations, food, dresses; whatever! I don’t even remember much of them but what I do remember is the truly beautiful and genuine moments celebrating with my friends and family.
To my brides: please don’t get caught in the small things and details. 

No matter what happens- he loves you and you love him and your wedding day is 24 hours set aside for the rest of your life to celebrate loving one another.

It’s the best gift you’ll ever give one another.

The perfect protein skillet to make for the whole family and still hit your goals!

Finally back in the kitchen with some new grub for you guys!
I make something similar to this recipe and thought I would give it a little re-vamp and it’s turned into being my favorite recipe I’ve made this year!
Gluten and dairy free and so easy too make for the whole fam!
 

Protein and Sweet Potato Skillet


What you’ll need:

  • 2 medium/large sauté pans (I use cast iron)
  • Cutting board and knife 
  • Coconut or MCT cooking oil
  • Mixing spoon
  • Serving dish

Ingredients:

  • 2 large sweet potatoes
  • 15 asparagus stalks
  • 1 small white onion
  • 2 baby onion stalks
  • 1 pound ground turkey or beef (80/20 on the beef)
  • Mrs. Dash seasoning 
  • 1 medium yellow pepper
  • Parmesan or feta cheese (optional)

For my beef, I only use 100% hormone free organic products. Order the beef I use HERE and I even hooked you guys up with a discount! Enter ALYSHA at checkout.
How to make it:

  1. Slice the pepper, onion, and asparagus into bit size pieces, set aside
  2. Slice sweet potato into small, cube shaped chunks, set aside.
  3. Sauté your protein on a medium, oiled Skillet for 10-14 minutes or until golden brown. 
  4. Drain excess fat from Skillet and place and set aside.

Now you’re ready to get your potatoes and veggies ready! A trick I always use is soaking my sweet potatoes in room temp water and then popping them into the microwave too soften for 4 minutes before slicing.
Also, using some “fat flavor” from your protein on your Skillet is a great addition too sautéing your potatoes. Anyways… bake to cookin!

  • Once your sweet taters are sliced, add them and 3 tbs of coconut oil to a medium/hot sauté pan. Make sure to stir every 2 minutes for a total of 12-15 minutes or until your potatoes have a harder shell or even a little blackened.
  • Add Mrs. Dash seasoning to the sweet potatoes the last 3 minutes they are cooking.
  • In a separate Skillet, add onion, asparagus, and yellow paper with 1 tbs. coconut oil. Sauté on low/medium heat for 7-10 minutes or until veggies are softened.
  • In your serving dish, scoop out sweet potatoes, and veggie ingredients together and give hen a light couple of tosses or until blended.
  • Add some some shredded parm cheese or feta on top and you’re ready too serve!

My husband and my little love this recipe so I always double my ingredients to make bulk for the week.
A little tip for my girls hitting the workouts this month; this is a perfect macro meal for post workouts too!

Happy holidays guys! 

Umm Hey, I have a 1 year old?

I’m a mom of a 1 year old.
I’ve put a lot of time and thought into this post.

I’ve been writing down notes, thoughts, rants, even prayers for a year now and unknowingly I was writing this blog for a very long time.

My son turns 1 this week and I’m trying to wrap my mind around so many things I’ve learnt, experienced, dealt with,felt; in the last year.
So I thought I’d just share the things I’ve been writing down for the last year.
“Thank you for choosing me to be your mama” The moment my son was placed on my chest, he looked straight into my eyes and I was blown away how much love I could feel for meeting someone for the first time. He knew me, I knew him, and I’d searched years for that feeling he gave me instantly: fulfillment.


I had a rough pregnancy. Pretty intense labor and didn’t care about any of it, because I had him now. We (my husband and I) just kept looking at each other, staring at him; so in love.

Our first night home, Baby B slept for 8 hours straight and didn’t make a sound and we BOTH said, “man, this is easy”…..holy shit, did we have another thing coming!
“I’m not a quitter, but I seriously don’t know how to do this again tomorrow” So for my new moms, don’t let this scare you. For my veteran moms, you’re just gonna laugh.

It was month 3, I had extremely low milk supply, a baby with a high appetite and seemed to sleep, well, never.

Sleep deprivation, hormone swings out the ass, and putting pants on was a high achievement in those days! Those days and nights were some of the hardest mental and physical days I’ve ever experienced in my life; looking back though, I’ve never been so connected with my husband. I’d never lived so un-selfishly and I’d never appreciated little things so much….. A nap, a meal from a neighbor, a husband that did bath time every night. I write that last sentence with tears in my eyes because those things REALLY meant that much too me.


My tips? Bring a lactation consultant to your house, get a baby swing, don’t do the laundry-SLEEP WHEN THEY SLEEP, and know it gets easier and you get better.
“He’s just so awesome.” Month 3-6, Baby B was turning into the happiest and most curios baby. I took him everywhere. We did everything together and my husband and I were really getting into the swing of this “parenting” thing.

We just couldn’t stop saying how awesome he was. 

Everything your kid does is amazing. Every smile, laugh, even a fart is just the coolest damn thing. The best part of being a parent is getting constantly blown away by how proud you are of your children; it’s priceless.


“You think this shit is easy?” Before baby I worked an 80 hour work week. After baby I attempted the same, but determined I’d do that AND be a stay at home mom.

I turned into a complete train wreck.

I was stressed, anxiety driven, exhausted, and jealous; yes jealous.

I was jealous my husband got to go to work. I was envious seeing other people exploring their careers and I was so mad I couldn’t figure out a balance of career and motherhood.

In return, I took a lot out on my husband, which was so unfair. And now looking back I wasn’t being honest with myself or giving myself a chance really.

I loved being at home with my son, I didn’t and still haven’t missed anything, that meant everything to me! But I knew I needed to stop getting frustrated and start getting CREATIVE.

I put a gym (I’m a personal trainer) in my house, hired a part time nanny, and got my ass back to work and my mind back in check.

As a couple, we had highs and lows about career and family. As a person, I had to search to the bottom of my soul it felt like to find my way. But it came together; for me and my family.
“I love my body; like seriously.” I had some form of an eating disorder for 18 years of my life. The day I found out I was pregnant, I knew my addiction to my body was over. My son saved me from myself.

My last stint in therapy I was asked, “what is your ultimate goal of recovery?”

“To say I love my body,” I replied.

I finally said that out load 6 months ago and I truly believe it. I train very hard, but not for aesthetics. I train to be healthy, to be strong, to be an example for my son.
“Is he ever going to be ok?” Sick babies hurt your heart and can break you down; seriously. 

My son from 6-10 months was sick from something almost every week. Ear infections that lasted months. He went from sleeping through the night to 45 minutes at a time. The feeling of helplessness was unbearable to me.

I just wanted him to feel better. But I also realized so many families have it far worse than us, and I feel so much for them.

Babies get sick. You get tough and you just love them through it.
“This is so dang fun” Becoming a mother is like any life change; there’s layers too it. 

There’s the messy ones, the really happy ones, and just the fillers.

The days really do fly by and one thing I’m left with after a year is that; “The moments pass by so fast, but while you’re in that moment it can feel like a very long time.”

My moment currently? Well it’s SO fun!


Baby B is walking, talking, and really developing into a pretty unique little human! This little human happens to also be discovering emotions, boundaries, and how to always realize a bathroom door is open as he unrolls the 50th toilet paper roll of the week….

Like month 1, month 12 gets easier on some things and reveals new challenges; but the difference is now I have some confidence as a mother.

I google less, I sleep more and the next year is going to be a blast for us both!
I’ve read countless books, blogs, and articles in the last year trying to help figure out this mom thing, but it’s true; there really isn’t a handbook or directions to explain all the ends and outs of being a mama.

Turns out, you ALWAYS end up writing your own.

Words can’t describe what my son has taught and allowed me too feel in a year, the only way to describe it is too look at his face…… He’s so happy.
And that moms, on the hard and the easy days, is the only true way to measure how you’re doing.
Last night, my son threw my iPad in the toilet after a full day of smashing crackers, giggles, unexplainable crying episodes, Elmo, patty-cake, and refusing to eat anything but Mac and cheese….. I elegantly made a not in my journal, “He might start a cult someday”.
Mom life can be tough, but it’s always so fun!
Congrats to my new and my veteran mamas; another year in the books and we have so many great years ahead!

To my son; a year ago I didn’t give you the gift of life, you have me the greatest gift I’ve ever had; you!

Thank you for showing me how to love, feel, laugh, and live a life like this! I love you tater tot, Happy 1 year baby!

5 Ways To Get Your Body Back After Baby

I can think of a couple HUGE goals to attempt in life; climbing Everest, swimming the English Channel, world peace- oh and getting your body back after baby!I’ve trained women for 10 years and thought I really understood the struggle of being a mom and making fitness a part of your life…..but I quickly realized I had no idea about any of that, until I attempted my first sit up, 6 weeks after giving birth.


Getting back is hard; wait, it’s down right BS in the beginning!

Trying to train on 4 hours sleep, hormone switches out the whazoo, and meal prep? You mean whatever you can microwave after 12 hours of pumping yourself like a milk cow and getting peed and spit up on all day.

BUT as hard as it is, as far away from your goal you feel; it happens! Inch by inch, day by day, and all you HAVE to do is keep showing up mamas!

I wanted to share this week the 5 major things that helped me get my BODY AFTER BABY:
Crawl before you walk. The biggest mistake I made when I was released for workouts at 6 weeks postpartum, was thinking I could get right back to my old workouts. Everything moves and shifts during pregnancy and delivery, and before I could walk into workouts, I had to get fundamental strength back! Restoring strength in the pelvic floor and abdominals is key! From week 3-6, all I did was at home PF rehab with daily walks (See my exercises here)
Also, before I started ANY core work, I check myself for diastasis recti or DR. (Check for DR here)Whether you do or don’t have DR it’s crucial to know, so you can properly train your core postpartum.
Make a plan. I’m not going to say learn how to multi-task here; you’re a mom! You already get those vibes! But a mistake a lot of moms make coming back after pregnancy, is too much-too soon.

Start small, but doable.

I started 3 days light weight training, 3-4 days at home rehab exercises with light cardio such as walking. The older my son got, the better I could have a schedule.

For example he always took a nap in the early morning for 35-1 hour, so every day this was my “training time”. I made workouts short enough to fit that time and when he was awake, I’d throw him in the bouncy or strap him in his carrier and do my workout with him. You have to get creative the first couple months.(Do my carrier workouts)


Once my son was older, both of us were ready to go to the next level and I researched gyms in my area that had child care. I found a great gym and he loved going while I got a great workout in! You’d be surprised how many fitness centers offer great child care for a reasonable price for infants and toddlers.

Calories on Fleek. So this is number 1 mamas! Body after baby is a tricky thing; ecspecially when you’re trying to determine how many calories you should be consuming each day.
I’ll try to make it simple here; if you’re breast feeding, calorie consumption makes up a huge part of your milk supply which is priceless!

Start with your maintenance level calories, add 300 calories above those. On your training days, add an additional 150-200 calories on top of those to equal 450-500 calories on top of your maintenance level calories.

Don’t know your maintenance level calories? Email me! Alysha@justafitchick.com 

If you’re not or unable to breast feed, start with your maintenance level calories and add 150-200 calories to your training day and adjust your calories to right under your maintenance level for your rest days.

Set your macro percentages to 40% carbs, 30% protein, and 30% fats.

*This is a general estimate of calorie consumption. I strongly suggest customizing your calories and macros to your goals specifically.

Small goals sister. Numbers have never meant less or been more frustrating when it comes too postpartum training. Going up and down is just part of it!
I had to remind myself that 6 weeks before I had a human inside of me, I dropped close to 20 pounds in 2 weeks, and my body is still recovering from delivering a football; cut yourself some slack sister!

My biggest piece of advice is too not make a scale goal. Don’t try that pre-baby pair of pants on….. Just make the goal to make fitness work into your life! Start at 2-3 days, maybe get to 5-6 within 6 months.

You’re not in a race with anyone but yourself. Enjoy your baby. Love feeling strong again…the results will show up eventually, if you continue too.


It’s a family thing. The most helpful thing that helped me get my body back after baby took me the longest time to get: asking for help!
In the beginning I was trying to do EVERYTHING myself and it took its toll.

I was t00 tired to enjoy training. Too mentally spent to stay motivated and too be honest was an emotional wreck.

Thankfully I have a great guy. He stepped in and offered help and reluctantly, but thankfully I took it.

We made a schedule of 3 times a week I got time to train, and the same thing for him. I strongly suggest making a schedule! It doesn’t always go to plan, but it gives you some comfort you have some control when you feel like a 2 month old is dictating every second of your day. By the way they are; and it’s awesome!

Whether it’s your fella, family, a close friend…. There is ALWAYS someone who would love to help for 30 minutes so you can have some time to yourself.

 

Don’t feel guilty mamas! Taking care of yourself is taking care of baby too!